Tuesday, June 05, 2012

tmi tuesday: don't snort your wellbutrin up your nose.

Wednesday Burrito Lunch Date
After two visits with a psychiatrist, he was able to determine that I am not bipolar, and I am not schizophrenic. In fact, he found me to be a bit of a conundrum. I don't have ADD or ADHD, and yet I am still extremely depressed. I don't fit into a pretty little diagnosis which would mean a clear cut path on what medications I should be taking.

The conclusion he came to, is I have a lot of stress, a harder life than most, and I have a legitimate reason to feel sad. Medications are helping to keep my head above water and manage my anxiety. And I will probably always need them to manage. But I don't need more medication to help me feel better. I need therapy.

So, after agreeing to commit to attending weekly therapy, he filled out my prescriptions and told me that after this session, I didn't really need to see him anymore. One of my prescriptions is Wellbutrin, and he reminded me not to crush it and snort it up my nose. Say what? I guess his patients at the prison take their meds in a different way than me. I like to wash mine down with a nice pinot gris. I'm sure if he reads my blog he'll be horrified by my candour, but as I told him, I write as part of my therapy and also to help break the stigma that mental health is a dirty little secret to be ashamed of. Every time I write about my journey with depression, I receive many emails from people who are also struggling. So, word to the wise, don't crush up your Wellbutrin and snort it up your nose. But if you do, email me and let me know what happens as I am a little curious!


  1. noted! Thanks for the PSA. lol!!

  2. I know, right???

  3. LOL. I know mental health is no laughing matter, but loved this post. Way to stand up, be honest and say it like it is. I suffer from GAD...treated without meds but with CBT. I think more people should discuss mental health...we all support eachother if we are physically sick, so why not support mental illness as well, after all, 1 in 4 Canadians have a Mental illness (1 in 3 in Manitoba).

  4. Kat,

    I also suffer from major depression, and after a few years of not getting enough relief as I'd like due to meds, I started therapy. The first therapist I had was terrible; after a few sessions, I said "enough" and found someone different. It's been a year this month now that I've been seeing her - my depression isn't gone (still on meds), but it is definitely more manageable. I hope you find a therapist that you "click" with soon :) I hope that your insurance/health plan allows you to "shop" around.

    Question - why was your psychiatrist trying to find an alt dx? Can you only be diagnosed as flat-out depressed if you respond to meds extremely well? I was under the impression that you could carry the dx of clinical/major depression, without other co-existing conditions, even if you don't respond to meds at all. Just curious :)

    Pat on the back for taking care of yourself. Best wishes.

  5. Anonymous9:59 a.m.

    One of these days we won't need to distinguish between mental health and physical health--it'll just be health, end of story.

    I was in your shoes a few years ago--a lot of stress, a lot of depression, but my doctor wanted me to try therapy before putting me on meds. It was a great decision for me--and therapy can be a really useful supplement to meds that are already working. I hope you find someone you can relate to--it may take a couple of tries, but the payoff will be worth it. Thanks for sharing, Kat!

  6. Julia Jensen8:21 p.m.

    I love reading your posts!
    So glad you are making some progress!
    Keep writing because we are going to keep
    reading and cheering you on this journey!

  7. Anonymous4:24 p.m.

    gets u really high like coke

    do it

  8. Love your writing and the fact you are trying to raise awareness for a problem a lot of us struggle with.