Thursday, January 06, 2011
you gotta get that dirt off your shoulder.
I really felt (and still feel) that strongly about it. It brought together the thing I am most passionate about (Autism) with all of my skills and my love of all things media and communications. For the first time in my life I looked at a job and thought “that’s it – this is the perfect job for me – I will rock this job”.
But I didn’t get the job. Apparently there is someone else out there who is going to rock that job harder than me (difficult to believe, I know).
So where does that leave me? It’s hard to get so close you can taste it. Kind of like inhaling the clean, crisp air in Whistler and then being yanked back into the smog of downtown Toronto and told "just kidding". The polluted city didn’t seem so bad when you didn’t know how good it felt to breathe the fresh air that made you feel alive from head to toe. Now it feels like someone is sitting on my chest.
The only option, as I see it, is to trust and keep faith. Trust that the universe has something else, something better in mind for me. Believe that keeping an open mind and open heart will reflect back the positive energy I am sending out. While I am certainly sad today, I know that is good, because it means that this was real. I wanted this with all my heart and it is totally okay to be disappointed. That glimpse of what I really want will give me the drive to keep pursuing those types of opportunities. There have to be more out there just like it, except, you know, better.