Thursday, January 06, 2011

you gotta get that dirt off your shoulder.

I recently interviewed for an opportunity that I thought would be THE BEST JOB IN THE WORLD! OMG! THIS JOB WAS MADE FOR ME!!

I really felt (and still feel) that strongly about it. It brought together the thing I am most passionate about (Autism) with all of my skills and my love of all things media and communications. For the first time in my life I looked at a job and thought “that’s it – this is the perfect job for me – I will rock this job”.

But I didn’t get the job. Apparently there is someone else out there who is going to rock that job harder than me (difficult to believe, I know).

So where does that leave me? It’s hard to get so close you can taste it. Kind of like inhaling the clean, crisp air in Whistler and then being yanked back into the smog of downtown Toronto and told "just kidding". The polluted city didn’t seem so bad when you didn’t know how good it felt to breathe the fresh air that made you feel alive from head to toe.  Now it feels like someone is sitting on my chest.

The only option, as I see it, is to trust and keep faith. Trust that the universe has something else, something better in mind for me. Believe that keeping an open mind and open heart will reflect back the positive energy I am sending out. While I am certainly sad today, I know that is good, because it means that this was real. I wanted this with all my heart and it is totally okay to be disappointed. That glimpse of what I really want will give me the drive to keep pursuing those types of opportunities. There have to be more out there just like it, except, you know, better.

4 comments:

  1. Aw, bummer! I'm so sorry you didn't get it. Boo!

    (though your attitude is great! I'd be much crankier if it was me.)

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  2. Lol. I think I'm more sad than anything. I'll be fine. I gotta meet the person they hired though - she must be Jesus, Mary and Joseph come to life in the form of Lady Gaga or something...

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  3. Caroline4:23 PM

    Sometimes it isn't what you want or how great you think you'd do in a job (and, just for the record, I agree with your assessment) but where you will learn the most or the best...

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  4. I know exactly how you felt. I was first runner-up in a bid for an editorship at an Alberta magazine. While it meant uprooting my life (not to mention my entire Styx collection), I was up for the challenge. I definitely was a bit more crabby than you are about this gig. Good on ya. Something even more brilliant and exciting will come your way (see... positive vibes!).

    Scribe

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