I have come to realize that I live two separate lives. There is my day to day "real" life where I am a mom, a wife, a daughter, an employee and a friend. There is also my web existence where I don my fickle feline superhero costume and fly into the online ether.
quilt with me. A job that while not my dream job, pays the bills and is close to home. This real life feeds my online persona. It is my day to day experiences that I draw on to fuel my existence as fickle feline. When I suit up (or log on) I feel an internal shift within me.
This past week I spent 3 days as fickle feline at the Blissdom Conference in Nashville. It was awesome and weird and fun and thought provoking all rolled into one big ball of emotions. I got to meet people that I have only ever known as their online identity (some of them equal to Mrs.Incredible and Wonder Woman in stature). I realized that no matter how popular someone is online (determined by hundreds of thousands of twitter followers and millions of page views), when they are standing next to me in line for coffee, we are very much equals.
Brené Brown and learned that she too has felt less than fantastic about her appearance, she too has had flashes of panic about putting herself out there. And she is still GREAT. I met Karen Walrond, the author of The Beauty of Different and listened to her speak about having to do an internal check of her core values when writing her blog and keeping her online life and her real life completely separate. And she is the personification of real beauty. I sat on the floor with Maggie and Amy and talked with them about the challenges of running their own businesses and how they plan to grow while still staying true to the reason they started in the first place. They both took the leap and are their own bosses. Everywhere I turned I was surrounded by women challenging themselves to live and love with their whole hearts. For a few short days we all took off our super hero masks and capes and shared of ourselves in a way we cannot in our day to day lives.
It was a reminder of something I have known for a long time - we are all more the same than we are different. That holds true in all facets of life. My challenge now is to find a way to make this type of connection more often, online and in day to day life. It is easier to be vulnerable as fickle feline than it is as Katrina. I can be both and be enough, either way.