Friday, March 27, 2009

Blast From the Past.

My college reunion is being held this summer on the July 4th long weekend. I have mixed emotions about going. While part of me would love to go, and catch up with everyone from my college days, another part of me has no desire to relive what was one of the toughest periods of my life. Don't get me wrong, I learned a lot while at SWCC and made some great friends. I also suffered from a horrible bout of depression, got my heart broken for the first time, and made a bunch of really bad calls.

This picture was taken in my freshman year, before classes had even started. I was renting the first floor of a dilapidated house with another girl from Canada. Interestingly enough, this girl is on Facebook and she won't friend me. Makes me think I must have been a real treat to live with, or maybe she is just a jerk. Who knows? I really have no hard feelings towards her, but maybe my memory is selective and it may in fact be that I was a rotten roommate. Though I do recall deleting a message when one of her boyfriends (Dave, I think) tried to breakup with her on our answering machine, calling him back and telling him that he needed to man up and do it in person, that I would not allow him to dump her that way. But I digress.

SWCC is the place I credit with making me a musician. While I don't work professionally as a musician, I still consider myself one. Most of the people I went to school with are doing something music wise with their careers. When I reconnect with them, the inevitable question that comes up is "What are you doing for a living?". I dread that question because a) I feel like they judge me when I say I am working in Marketing, and not in the music field and b) what I do from 9-5 is not what defines me as a person, just like how much money I make does not equate my worth as a human being.

I guess what I'm saying is I really don't want to take a trip down memory lane, go backward instead of forward. So why am I even considering going? There are a select group of friends that I would love to reconnect with. I would also like to see my professor Phil Mattson, and thank him in person for the music and life education he gave me and for helping me battle through my depression, never giving up on me. And also, I want to see that roommate of mine and find out while she won't friend me on Facebook. Kidding. I don't really care about that, I mostly just want to stalk her profile to see wtf she's up to. Perhaps I should just try to reconnect with these friends individually. It's tough though, because they are spread out all across the United States - literally from coast to coast. I could get to see them all in one shot, while it will take me years to get the chance to catch up with them one by one.

What would you do? Go? Not go? What's your take on the whole reunion thing? Do tell...I clearly need some advice.

6 comments:

  1. Anonymous11:08 AM

    Though I do recall deleting a message when one of her boyfriends (Dave, I think) tried to breakup with her on our answering machine, calling him back and telling him that he needed to man up and do it in person, that I would not allow him to dump her that way.

    LOL, classic Kat. I can just imagine Dave's response. "Who is this chick?" Then, as now, you were a force of nature.

    Scott

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  2. Yeah, well, I guess I was a bit of a hurricane even back then ;-P

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  3. Anonymous10:04 PM

    I would say, go. You might need some closure (they're probably not judging you, though you perceive it as such, so that would be good to find out for yourself) and you might regret it if you don't go. If some people saw you at your lows back then and figured that's who you were as a person, I think they may be surprised to see how that was a phase and the real you is who you've become: an amazing woman who's full of life. :)

    Good luck with your decision.

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  4. Anonymous8:22 PM

    I just received an email list of all the people who have died that were in my high school graduating class. . ...years ago. The message was entitled "The Big Chill." (I'm an almost senior, I should mention.) It was a representative sample of the class:the popular pack, the nerds, the people who traveled below the radar, the jocks.....it seems that everyone dies, regardless of their social standing way back then. If you are itching to get some closure, then go. I gotta tell that the list does reassure me that despite their feelings to the contrary, the king and the queen of the prom are mortal.

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  5. Thanks everyone! I'm leaning towards going...just have to figure out how to scrape the $$ together for it. Also, what a great motivator to shed these extra pounds!

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  6. Speaking as a former room-mate, I can honestly say that you were a delightful room mate. Mind you, I think we came into each others' orbits much later than this!!

    I do wonder if any of my boy/girlfriends were unable to breakup with me because of you though! That would explain a few things!

    :)

    D

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